Day23 - Something I Miss

Pardon me for my very long break, it wasn't really needed but it was necessary. It feels good to be back even though I am not really in the mood to write but I must complete my 30day challenge as promised. I am glad to tell you NYSC is over and my certificate is hanging in my room (jokes) its in one folder like that *one year gone so soon* anyway the real life has just begun.

The truth is that I miss my old self, let me put it this way, I miss growing up, I miss my childhood. Its not a life I want to go back neither is it one am so proud of. Growing up as a child for me wasn't easy, anytime I go back in time maybe after looking at my pictures a still small voice whispers in my ears so this fine cutie was a mumu boy.

I was one child in my own world, never allowed anybody carry me as a baby *only family* I would weep till the roofs came falling down. Nursery school you would drop me off in one spot that's the same place you would pick me up from. I hardly made friends, I was just into myself....it was a breakfast-school-lunch-dinner routine everyday. No extra-curricular activities, if my routine was broken like daddy telling me to go and play I would just leave the house pretend to play and come back.

Look at me now *in chris brown's voice* I am so different, people keep complaining Ehi you have so many friends, where do you know all these fine girls from. Actually I am not allergic to ugly girls but they don't just come my way. One thing I told myself when I graduated from secondary school was this: Ehi you really need to change, open up and if you think it hurts you can always change back to your old shy life after all I own myself. This has kept me going-on I can't even imagine still living that my old wretched life but I really do miss it. Life has thought me lessons, that you always have to believe in yourself no matter the situation. Low self esteem sucks,its not easy coming out of it but trust me giving everything a trial is worth it. I so love my life at the moment, with all humility I make sure I leave my foot steps on the sands of time, its almost impossible for you to have me as a good friend and when I am a distance away you wouldn't feel the impact that I am gone, you just have to miss me one way or the other :D
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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