Awesome Wonder

Happy New Leap Year readers!! Feels good to be back despite the phase of life I am going through at the moment. I thank God for 2011 but I know 2012 will be better. There has been so much running through my mind, sometimes I don't know whether to voice it out, but really to who/whom?! If you have seen me these past days you don't need to read the frustration tattooed all over me my sister can testify to that.

In all things I still need to give thanks to God who has spared my life till this very moment, it is all by His mercy and grace. So many thoughts ran through my head today, from the aura of different male colognes which gave me a slight headache to the song "Awesome God" administered by the lovely choir in church. I had no inner-peace, my soul was perplexed with the current happenings of the nation and at the same time I envisioned the Awesomeness of the one and only great God.

It has gotten to an extent that I may have to disclaim my birth country but permit me to say I am a citizen of heaven sent by God to be ehnnnn *thinking* probably an agent of Nigeria x_x that should fit. At first I never wanted to air my views about this whole subsidy removal, at a certain point I was for Jonathan but as we speak I don't know if I am on the fence and indifferent about everything or yet again I am one of Jonathan's voltrons(twitter language- meaning to be against a person). I will try not to rant or chant away so my views can be understood.

Sunday 1st January, 2012 couldn't have been worse than waking up from a lovely siesta to see my social feeds with a tweet that PMS is now 141 naira O_O, this is the part you clean yours eyes and wonder if it is just a dream. The first thing that crossed my mind was WhyTheHell did I not fill my tank up yesterday, to me I was like I will buy the fuel like that. The next day I bought fuel only for me to realize the 1500 I just put was as good as 750naira my money had literally lost value, my savings in the bank was as good as half the value. I rained curses on Jonathan and his cabinet.

No infrastructures in place, corruption here and there, boko-haram shedding blood like its video gaming or one of those staged hollywood movies. All these made me a voltron of GEJ but I went on my own research to really see what the end meant if this subsidy is taken off once and for all since it has been a matter on the dining table for a very long time. In the long run the President actually meant well for his people or will I say subjects but really in summary it was the wrongest time for that move. Then again the word CABALOCRACY came into play.

Let's break down the word "cabal" the artifices and intrigues of a group of persons secretly united in a plot. I heard a cabal has been benefiting from this fuel subsidy or will I say they are a certain few behind closed doors enjoying the wealth available for the masses just to themselves. Let me put it in a lame man's language, they are the new generation mafia which existed in the 70's. They are absolutely untouchable that's what they feel, they feel they are gods and have forgotten they are men and dust will they return to. This reminds me of "oversight" in the tv series called nikita, the group of people who think they control the divisions op and Percy himself.

Cabalocracy is a government of the cabal, by the cabal, and for the cabal. Sometimes I just picture a group of people who have accumulated power and are at one side of a particular door while some other people are pushing this door from the other side trying to get to this room of the cabal and we the masses are watching and clapping our hands. These people have gotten us petrified for too long and enough is enough we are now fighting for REVOLUTION. I am an angry youth but I can't find myself going to ojota or freedom park with a placard of curses on it only to reach my destination to meet entertainers stealing the crowd really is that what #occupynigeria is about?! Anyway I don't know the best way to approach the situation because I don't expect the protesters to go there in a despondent manner.

Back to the Awesome wonder, I wish I could explain how I envision God, I wish I could draw it or just put it down somehow but how I see God seems it is meant to be in my head only. I know He is up there just watching and waiting for the right time to intervene. Today during sunday school in church we had a very interactive class with the caption "VENGEANCE" and the sect up north killing christians was the main focus. Different comments were voiced out whether it is time for christians to take their physical weapons and take the fight to these miscreants. They can't actually force God's children out of there, the bible says for the righteous shall inherit the earth, the same bible says wisdom is profitable to direct. In conclusion, the pastor rounded up by saying David sought the Lord and he was told pursue and you shall overtake. We can't just take laws into our hands since GEJ is feeding on 1billion naira worth of food and has forgotten his duties, he also said if he has a gun he will put it to use in the north defending himself, the time of slap left cheek I give you the right is over, once you are bombed there might never be another day to give the next cheek lol.

I wish I could just fully spit out my heart, the government is full of corruption infested leaders, we want them out but at the same time how are we sure the next generation to get into power wouldn't turn against the same people that voted them there. The people in power probably once thought I will get there and change Nigeria but they all got blinded by money :(. God owns this country and He is not asleep, soon He will fight for his own. In the words of Pastor E.A Adeboye in his prophecy for Nigeria in 2012 "It will be said All is well that ends well" for Nigeria. This too shall pass.

This post is dedicated to the Christians who lost their lives to the forces of the devil in the north and also the military men who died in that plane crash many years ago.
Armed Forces Remembrance day!!
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day30 - Something I am Excited for

Finally the last but not the least in my 30 day challenge writing series. I know it took almost 3months but trust me I was going through a phase. Have you ever heard when they say God's time is the best, it is really the best "All good things come to those who wait". I am glad to tell you I tried spying into 2012 and all I could see was that it was 10 times better than 2011 that has been my best year ever.

I am so excited that I can't wait for 00:00am 01.01.2012 to come, I can't wait for the over flowing joy, I can't wait to start the best part of my life, I can't wait to hear happy new year, to receive the warmest hug of my life, I can't wait to look back and smh and say it was worth the wait. I am too excited to type, this December has been so sweet and a memorable one, forever in the sands of time. I know you can't wait to hear my story so stick with me, the good news is on the way so wait for it.

I want to thank you all who were there in one little way or the other for me, the last 363days have been fun with you all, there were the depressing days and the joyful days but you have not seen or read the headlines about me yet. I want to say HAPPY NEW YEAR in advance to you all and keep it at the back of your mind that in whatever you do "Don't stop believing" and in case I never come back to blogging, by God's grace we would all meet at the top. This is just the genesis of it all.........
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day29 - Five Weird Things About Me

1. I am Claustrophobic- I hate crowded places especially with people I know. If I am with people I don't know I can manage or cope but sometimes it still gets out of hand. Okay let me explain, if I am in a place with many people who know me, I lose my calm, I become uneasy, I lose composure and if it is for a very long time I start getting frustrated and sweaty. Trust me I hate reunions x_x.

2. I hate Onions- My mum claims maybe if I had been eating onions right from when I was young, I might have been fatter and healthier than I am. Please tell her heavenly yimu for me. I can't just stand the taste of onions, it runs blood in my veins faster than normal. For the first time in my life after so many years of cooking I sliced my 1st onion x_x trust me it felt good and also tasted good. I guess its the thought at the back of my mind that keeps me away from the root vegetable.

3. I hate Traditional Wear- Asin seriously m I Nigerian?! I hate everything about culture it pains me to the bone marrow n my parents dislike that about me. I always give a #notinterested look when it comes to all these cultural stuff. 2009 not one day did I not dress english wear, 2010 we can say not more than 10 times...2011 I improved at least 15 times and upwards. In fact I wore trad on tuesday this week and guess what I was referred to as "Sir" with my boyish looks *winks*. 2012 I am going to sew all the materials I have piling up in my room, I just need that respect :D

4. I hate the Rains- Any day it rains I am just like a girl in her period. Mood swings here and there. I don't hate the rain because back then in high school our environs had clayey soil, people stepped on the clay and brought footprints to the room, I don't hate the rain because I stay in lekki and my house and street always get flooded. I have hated the rain right from childhood, it just brings this dark unusual feeling that makes me angry. You don't want to meet me on a rainy day.

5. I hate Alcohol- The taste disgusts me, I know this is weird for a guy but I don't know why I dare to be different. I just drink ehrmmmmmm let's just say peer pressure and wanting to be a big boy that's the lucid truth, you can't expect me to go clubbing and start ordering malt or smirn-off. I know alcohol makes you stop thinking of the present and makes you so high that you forget your sorrows for the moment but trust me it just sucks up all the water in your dumb brain yes you m talking to you. Give me berry blast and I would kiss your feet I love that drink more than even #teamarsenal :D
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day28 - Somewhere I'D Like To Move To or Visit

Caller no.32 on the waiting list of Swift's customer care. Asin for real today of all days I decided to have pictures on my blog my internet connection aint working, please bear with me.

Thinking, where will I really want to move to or visit. Yeah finally I think I want to visit all the continents *dats greedy of me* well its my blog. I really want to go to Alaska, I have always had thoughts of dieing the first night I sleep there. Ask me why?! Well I heard its so cold there that you need a freezer so your food stuffs wouldn't freeze up. Its so funny how I sleep with my fan on and wake up with blocked nostrils talkless of using my a.c and I want to visit the North-Pole. My respiratory system is really that weak :( God dey.

Trinidad and Tobago one of the archipelagic states in the southern Caribbean should be my next stop. You know how I always day-dream of marrying a wife from that beautiful island and starting my family there, well that's me for you :p. Next I think I will make a brief stop in Brazil, I have heard stories about their ladies always half nude :D pleasant to the eyes mehn.....heheh please don't hate. I really need God to save me from me.

Oh no!! I almost forgot Palm Island Grenadines, I remember the first time I heard about it, I hit my google button straight and I told God this is the place for our honey-moon if He tarries :D. Wow I am already tired of typing on this keypad well we r back to Europe and it is no other place but Paris ( I am still learning french sha), next flight to China, they are gradually overtaking the world if you can't beat them join them asap!! Anyway my main reason is that I really want to see how over-populated they are and still manage to be a great country no major reason.

In Africa if I were not Nigerian I would have wanted to visit this great nation to really see how third world they are. I guess the story I would have bn writing is: let me get to Nigeria and really experience what they mean by no constant supply of electricity. Well it is the other way round so south-africa here I come, its me Reme ur boy you have been waiting for. Last stop, let's quickly touch down Australia, hmmm heard Australasia is a magnificent continent I need to get ma footprints there. Okay let's stop the day dream, I think I need a trip to Accra for easter or maybe calabar here in Nigeria that should be fun.

By Gods grace 2012 will be fun, watch out!!!
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day27- A Quote I Try To Live By

Nisi Dominus Frustra pronounced nee-see daw-mee-news froo-stra. Okay before I go into the main post of the day I just want to say compliments of the season to all of you out there. I know I have been away for a while hmmm let's say about 3months but trust me before I left I was a sad man but right now I am so happy x_x don't know whether its because of the season or let's just blame it all on the Lord he alone is the source of my joy.

I remember the first time I came across "Nisi Dominus Frustra" I couldn't help but ping the owner of the personal message on bbm, usually I am not bothered by peoples pm or their status cos some peeps just update their whole life on bbm anyway this is not why we are here. He told me the latin phrase meant "unless the Lord we labour in vain" and it all made too much sense in fact it made brain #datisall.

Since then I have tried to live by it. It explains the 1st verse of Psalm 127....that reminds me I have been ordained as a worker in RCCG gigal parish (sunday school teacher/usher) heheheh I hear chants *preach on brother* lmao dnt mind me. Anyway Psalm 127 states and I quote "Except the LORD build the house, they labour in vain that build it: except the LORD keep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain" KJV, this can be related to our everyday life without God in whatever we do, we all labour in vain.

So I need you all to take a deep breath after reading this and think if not for God where would I have been today...you can also steal it and make it ur most favourite quote *winks* I stole it so u can also steal it after all God is big enough for all.

HAPPY BOXING DAY!!!
Life without the Lord is in vain.
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day26 - Things I Dislike and Like about Myself

·         I dislike the fact that I have been trying to get fat and it still seems there is no hope

·         I dislike the fact that I haven’t lived up to some promises *am human mehn* but someday let me even just shut-up before I make another promise.

·         I dislike the fact that I am always going up and down, sometimes a guy has got to sit his flat ass in one place.

·         I dislike the fact that sometimes I could be immature but you don’t really need to rub it in my face.

·         I dislike the fact that I don’t know how to dance.

·         I dislike the fact that some people think I am a snub/proud when I am just being my shy self, thank God some people really know me.

·         I dislike alcohol #weird I know but I just drink to feel among.

·         I dislike the fact that I joke a lot because I know some people use that as an edge to take advantage of me.

·         I like the fact that I met God at an early age  :D

·         I like everything that taste good in my mouth ie chocolates, pizza etc

·         I like shoes, clothes, watches, perfumes, cars anything that looks good on me or I look good in.

·         I like the fact I have small feet *yes you are free to mock me*

·         I like the fact that I have the non-giving up spirit, if I set my mind to get something I work towards it except 1^st class honours though *abeg spare me the pity*

·         I like the fact I am a quiet dude even though people think I talk too much.

·         I like the fact am a smart guy even though I have my mumu days lwkm

·         I like the fact I am the only son, hahahaha it took me years to discover this though trust me there are so many benefits.

·         I like the fact I am a straight forward person even though I have bitten corners to get what I wanted once in a while

·         I like the fact I am me, if there is another life after  this trust me I would still come as me but wait for it MORE AWESOME.

Day25 - Something I am Currently Worrying About

Plans sometimes change. Anyway it was expected but I have not given up yet, few days and I am out of this chilling town. My folks want me to stay back, a few old and new friends (sugar mummy) I just made also want me to stay but gidi is where my heart is. I miss gidi a lot especially that one special girl *stops typing and blushes a bit*. I told myself I would stop regretting but it is inevitable, I cannot force the employers of jobs to give me a job I blame the economy it is just fucked up (sorry for the swearing).


When I booked my ticket to come stay with my folks I told myself the only thing that would bring me back to gidi before my expected return is that sudden mail or phone call either for a job exam or an interview. I am tired of worrying, in fact I am done worrying. It is too early for me to start growing old due to worrying. During my stay here there was no one day my phone light blinked and I did not wish it was a heart-warming mail or my phone ring and I did not wish it was an HR member. Al is well *in my Indian accent*

I received so many gifts and even when I was asked what I wanted, I would say the best birthday gift I can wish for is a good paying job, I have not given up on God and I know he has not given up on me. I know my best friend stayed approximately 350days before he got a job but seriously I am tired of staying home, I am not the kind of person that likes seating in one place my body itches me a lot. My gift from God is still on the way I am trusting Him all out. I am too proud to ask daddy for money no I would not till things become too hard which I know would never get to that extent *I am so trying to smile* it is difficult right now.

Lagos here I come with 2 additional kg which I know I would shred in 2days, I am still laughing hard you wouldn’t believe what happened this night at our daily night devotion, daddy was the man of the moment he just came out of the shower which he was just observing for the first time of the day *if it is Reme now they would either murder me with the power or the tongue or wouldn’t allow me eat* and remixed not only 1, not only 2 but all the hymns we sang. I kept laughing hard but couldn’t be accompanied by mummy who was crashing, she really had a tough day, left the house by 7am for exercise then left for the market and didn’t return till 2pm. Let me leave my parents drama for now I am really going to miss them. Well I thought I wouldn’t be happy throughout this post but plans indeed change got to crash now, we leave for service by 6am and trust me you do not want to get an ex-military man late you would wish you were dead. Tkcr fellas Adios!!!

Day24 - Five Words/Phrases That Make Me Laugh

My birthday weekend is finally over I think it is high time I get back to the serious things of life. Anyway it was in fact the best I ever had, from partying (mad night) to hotel chilling to trying to lift some weights (bones snapped sha) to swimming. Ooops did I forget the buffet *me and food sha* the gifts also came rolling in, I never knew I was this loved even people I dint expect to remember that great day they all proved me wrong. Special thanks to God for keeping me alive to see another year and also making each year a better one for me because I am always on a higher level after every 365 days. I want to bless my family too, it aint easy having 4 sisters they would try their possible best to pamper and flood you with gifts and the gifts from my other friends it’s a big THANK YOU to you all, I have never felt this loved, looking forward to the next 361 days I can’t just wait.


This is the hardest topic in this challenge; I have been cracking my small skull to come up with something good o well!! I couldn’t so I can just say thank you for passing by. Heheheh don’t go anywhere yet, if 3 words were requested for it would have been too easy, if it was 5 words that get me annoyed it would have come rolling in a very long time ago anyway but here it goes. I wonder how many of you know Terry-G the ganja master (that’s what I think of him), he is so haggard looking, and sometimes I feel he is a mad man with a level of good sense. I wonder how much weed he takes into his system before he says all the rubbish that comes out of his mouth. Everything can be acting sha, he may not even be a weed master or a psycho he just wants people to talk or leave a comment. The 5 words that make me laugh are *you can stop guessing right about now* “MAKE I KNACK YOU APAKO”. I remember the first day I saw apako (pronounced akpako) on twitter, you wouldn’t believe I checked the dictionary, then a thought flooded my mind this word is too razz to be in oxford, forgive me I had not heard the song then, you know I am always carrying last when it comes to music.

Anyway the first person I asked the meaning was in my office and he was like its terry-g’s own slang, terry must have been high when he said it. It made me just take it as his personal phrase, you know now like Tubaba’s personal phrase is “NOTHING DEY HAPPEN”.I asked my very close friend and all that could come out of his dirty mind was “make I f*** you”, another person said it means “make I knack you stick”, another said “make I knack you stick” another friend thinks it’s a “BELL”…..this is going to be an endless controversy but as more replies come in I would feed it into this post. I leave you with this *now singing and dancing* make I knack am knack am knack am, make I knack you apako baby make I knack you apako…..lmao =D

Day23 - Something I Miss

Pardon me for my very long break, it wasn't really needed but it was necessary. It feels good to be back even though I am not really in the mood to write but I must complete my 30day challenge as promised. I am glad to tell you NYSC is over and my certificate is hanging in my room (jokes) its in one folder like that *one year gone so soon* anyway the real life has just begun.

The truth is that I miss my old self, let me put it this way, I miss growing up, I miss my childhood. Its not a life I want to go back neither is it one am so proud of. Growing up as a child for me wasn't easy, anytime I go back in time maybe after looking at my pictures a still small voice whispers in my ears so this fine cutie was a mumu boy.

I was one child in my own world, never allowed anybody carry me as a baby *only family* I would weep till the roofs came falling down. Nursery school you would drop me off in one spot that's the same place you would pick me up from. I hardly made friends, I was just into myself....it was a breakfast-school-lunch-dinner routine everyday. No extra-curricular activities, if my routine was broken like daddy telling me to go and play I would just leave the house pretend to play and come back.

Look at me now *in chris brown's voice* I am so different, people keep complaining Ehi you have so many friends, where do you know all these fine girls from. Actually I am not allergic to ugly girls but they don't just come my way. One thing I told myself when I graduated from secondary school was this: Ehi you really need to change, open up and if you think it hurts you can always change back to your old shy life after all I own myself. This has kept me going-on I can't even imagine still living that my old wretched life but I really do miss it. Life has thought me lessons, that you always have to believe in yourself no matter the situation. Low self esteem sucks,its not easy coming out of it but trust me giving everything a trial is worth it. I so love my life at the moment, with all humility I make sure I leave my foot steps on the sands of time, its almost impossible for you to have me as a good friend and when I am a distance away you wouldn't feel the impact that I am gone, you just have to miss me one way or the other :D
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day22 - My Academics

I have to say a very big thank you to God for making me who I am today. I can say the journey thus far wasn't an easy one, I can also say I wish I could go back in time and cross those T's and dot my I's.

My academics has been a very good one, sometimes I think so deep and I wonder where I got my wisdom and understanding from. I must confess its striving to do what is worth doing well that keeps me going. During the course of the week I was privileged to stumble across my seat partner in Class 5 and she reminded me how smart I used to be, I miss those days when I was focused, when fine girls where not the other of the day. Anytime I tell them(pry and high school friends) that I don't feel I was that smart they all yimu me and take me as a proud young man. Those days maths was the other of the day, as we speak now I have an online SHL test for a company I applied to but I am not in the mood to solve. I hate writing, I hate solving, I hate playing with figures, laziness has set in but from where?!

How did it start...this takes me back to class 3, I had this red evil maths textbook can't remember the name and trust me it is not ugo.c.ugo or understanding maths. Sums where so hard that I hid this book and told my parents it had been misplaced. They scolded me hard till I gave up my lies. One day out of 40questions I couldn't even solve one I ran away from the house forming I was going for choir practice. Unfortunately I never found my friend who I was to follow, I returned home to face the naval man's wrath he beat me so hard that I cried on my maths text. Guess what as the tears dropped on the page, it was like magic, I saw the answers, I solved in my brain, my little fingers wrote faster than my brain. Day in day out I mastered the act of mathematics, it became too easy. Pry 5 and Year 10 I ended up been the best maths student in my set.

Time flies you wouldn't believe that story just popped up in my head, how I remembered it only God knows. My academics has been a very graceful one I miss school, I miss education but along the line a girl always shows up. Its one more phase, one more mountain to cross for now at least my M.Eng in petroleum engineering that's all on my mind, I am even working on my essays so I can gain admission for my last academic stage of my life. I might still consider an MBA but till then my brain has been stretched but I must return back to school someday God sparing my life.
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day21 - How I hope my future to be like

The title of this post makes me smile over and over again...ask me why? Because if I start with my daydream about my Trinidad and Tobago wife with our son and daughter on our very own island you all would stone me with rotten eggs.
But really how do I want my future to be like? Do I want to be a working class man who is always travelling about with little or no time for the kids, or do I want to have my business so I can retire at an early age... These are the questions that bother me as I type this post.
I want to be comfortable enough, so I can get married to the right person before I am thirty years old, I want just two kids a girl and a guy, but if I get two of the same sexes concurrently I would try with another child then give up. I don't want to have a football team in my house crying and running helter skelter. I don't want a very proud future it has to be a lowkey one, I want to have a good job probably one in the oil and gas industry as this has been a dream for many years. I want to be a man who has made a little impact in my very own world someone who would leave footprints in the sands of time when I am gone. All these about my future has started a long time ago the plans are on ground and more scripts are added day in day out.
I Want to be so different from my dad, as generous as he is but still very different. By Gods grace I hope not to be in Nigeria but I am not saying if I find myself here I would kill myself, well man must survive but seriously even though my kids have their primary education here well after that they are out of this country shikena. I know God has plans for me and I am not ready to go out of his will for my life I just have to stick to the script without skipping scenes. I don't want a big house like my father, first of all I am not a guy that likes big things or let me put it like this big things come in small packages that's who I am. I would prefer go stay in a flat with 4 rooms, 1 for my wife and I, 2 for the kids and 1 for my guest. When I finally build or buy a house it must have more of land than the structure itself, there has to be more room for my lawn and parking of my different cars, a swimming pool and a mini-court. I think I am getting proud, anyway summer travelling around the world is a compulsory thing despite the country I finally settle down. I have so many big dreams that this white clipboard I am typing on cannot handle I think its better I leave my lips sealed and leave every other thing for God.
Time will actually tell don't go nowhere because your boy Remzay is actually heading for the moon and not the sky.
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day20 - My FEARS

I needed it badly, I couldn’t multitask, it was difficult but guess what I think I am back from my one week break. I am very sorry for not taking permission to go the break but trust me it was worth it. You know my NYSC us ending very soon so I took a break to work some things out.

Everyone has fears, even the richest man in the world is scared of tomorrow because he can die and leave everything, he may even be scared of losing his top position on the Forbes list. These are my fears;

I just have this feeling I wouldn’t marry a fine girl compared to those I have dated.

I am scared as we speak that I may change my mind and come back to this country when and if I finally escape.

I am scared that I could lose my life any moment from now without having to see lil Ehi.

I have this feeling I might not be as rich as I want.

I have this feeling that if I ask her out the answer is NO

I have this feeling I might not get the job I highly need at this moment

I have this feeling I may be this slim for life

I have this feeling that my stupidity or silliness may have increased from the last time it was measured.

I have this feeling she loves me but doesn’t want to make a mistake

I just have this feeling I may hit a girl some day even after 10years of abstaining

I have this feeling my best friend would not be my best man at my wedding

I have this feeling I may not make Heaven but God forbid.

I have this feeling that sometime soon this blog would be forgotten

I have this feeling arsenal might not win a cup even 5 years from now

I have this feeling that writing is not meant for me

I have this feeling that someday I would sleep and never wake up

I have this feeling I should never have written this post because my fears might actually come to pass K

Day19 - Five Things I Lust After

For all is vanity but we always wish we can have them all. The bible says "for what shall it profit a man if he gain the whole world and lose his own soul". Its human nature to lust after the things of this world, I can't imagine I am being limited to only five. Lmao I can't even name 3 without thinking deep but anyway enough of the blabbing let's get down to business.

1. Perfumes
I love nice scents. I wonder who in the world loves BO. You don't need to spray up to smell nice but I always wish I could soak myself up in a good perf and walk around. Don't you just love it when the ladies tell you that you have a nice scent and what's the name of your cologne, ghen ghen!!! You now give them that proud look in your mind and your like duhhh like I don't know, in fact I can't wait for my next perf I just hope this time around I don't have to spray 24hours before time because of my sister and her hatred for woody perfs.

2.Food
X_X I am currently sober, my stomach hurts so bad just because of the love for food. I actually went on a distance just to experience the taste of food served at mobil for lunch. It was really an experience and worth it. I can't afford to tell you all I had but I can say it was a greedy meal. I have my days when I grub 2days meal in one seating and I have days when I am not just in the mood to eat but trust me everybody loves a good meal. I wonder where all the food goes at the end of the day, it just evaporates into the thin air 8-|

3. G55 AMG
It just had to enter my list. I can't see a G55 AMG pass and not shiver or have goose flesh, its classic, its fresh, its boxy and it has all it takes. By Gods grace this would be my first SUV *whew* seems I have to work harder. Mercedes really make the best cars to me, they just make cars to have such a mean look that would make you think of stealing just to take the car for a ride and return it. I actually heard this particular SUV summer salts and lands back on its tyres like a cat lands on it feet. I heard oo I didn't say so but surely you got to love a black SUV like the G55 AMG if you need pictures just google it.

4. Clothes and Footwears
I love being in style that is all. Who in this world wants to look like a rifraf. You have to spend good money to look good. Since I graduated from school I have been trying to change my whole collection and I can assure you I have tried to an extent. I can't just wait for the dollar bills to start rolling in then you would see the real Reme I would splash that cash straight in the shops.

5. The I's
I am sure you are wondering what this means. Don't let your mind go to far, I actually mean all apple products the i touch,i phone,i pad,i mac if there is anything like that. I can't wait to get all and if you don't want me waiting you can sow into my life :D
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day18 - A Problem I Have Had

I hate remembering the past, the thought about it hurts so much. This evening the dermatologist just had to ask I wonder how an irritation on both of my legs links to me being an asthmatic patient.

I can't remember my first attack but I can remember the last, it was all like yesterday. As I grew up my mum promised me that by the time I am 18 it would be all gone. I dreamt of my 18th birthday day in day out because it was just like it would never come. The attacks always came at the wrong time, towards the night, difficulty sleeping was the order of the day, breathing so deeply in and yet the required amount of energy not getting in. Life was harsh sometimes I prayed it would just end and save me the trauma.

Seconds,minutes,hours,days,weeks,months and years went by with different attacks and sleepless nights, sometimes they lasted for about a week but I trusted my mum that all would be well someday. I have never been so scared in my life after my mum broke the news to me that Aunty Rose-mary her best friend from university had died on her way to the hospital from an attack :( may her soul rest in peace. Attack after attack and by Gods grace I am still alive, my sisters used to be so scared begging me to explain how I can't enough oxygen despite my heavy breathing, what more could I explain it was what it was.

My last attack was the worst, I think the worst was saved for the last *whew*. It was back then in 2002 when I was in year 9 before Junior WAEC. I noticed my tracts were all blocked and I had to raise my chest up to breathe, I knew the time had come so I decided to miss night prep and stay back in hostel. That was too dangerous only me without a friend and an attack happened, no ventolin close by I ha d to crawl to the nurse's room a floor below mine, it took me 1hr for a 5mins trek in normal cases. I crawled and crawled till I reached and I can't remember what happened next but it was God that saw me through. Since then no major attack but in smoky places I still feel weird. I am glad to tell you I can sweep now, drink cold water and even sleep with the ac on :D

I don't think I have had any problem ever worse than this, I am so glad it is well with my soul. Good night.
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day17 - Something I Am PROUD Of

I can boast anywhere any day any time saying I had the best home training as a child. As a child of a military man you know rubbish can't be expected from you. I was brought up in a Godly fashion, obedient, willing to learn and a never giving up mentality.

I am proud of my parents for imbibing in me the above listed characteristics. I owe them a lot because without God and them I am a nobody. Right from the day I was born and wrapped in a cream quilt to the moment of typing this post they have been there for me. In spiritual, financial and even physical aid they have been helpful. I really need to sleep right now but I can go on and on. My parents are my most priceless possession #dontdull. Sleep tight fellas.
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day16 - Something I always think "What if...?!" About

Sorry this post is about a day late. It is actually dawning on me september is already here, I thought by this time I would have gotten a job. I don't want to rely on man who keeps telling me Ehi don't worry all is well. For Christ sakes my contract ends in twenty-five days time and I can't even see the tiniest shade of light that signifies the end of the tunnel.

The question "What If?!" Has started ringing a bell in my head, 3 new corpers in my department :s there is a God watching up there. But what if I really go back to my bed just like last year before NYSC started. Life just sucks not having a paid job or where to go 9 to 5pm. You can't just wake up and be looking for p to attend or wake up to read a novel, or wake up to watch your fan spin. Where there is a will there is a way. My future is bright all I need now is a little inner peace, I need to stop panicking.

The question what if?! Also comes to my mind every time. What if I actually lose my dad soon, God forbid. Being the only son am I matured enough to be the bread winner,can I also fend for myself alone. I know this is too sad in fact let me stop here before I start saying things that begin to scare people.
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day15 - My Zodia/Horoscope and If I think It Fits My Personality

Libra
September 23 - October 22

I have never read anything about horoscopes or zodiac signs, neither did I know the signs really describe the people that fall under them at least some not all. I am a Libran in the making (that’s if there is any word like that).

Libra is the seventh sign of the zodiac, and it’s at this point in the zodiac that we start to see a shift. While the first six signs of the zodiac focus on the individual, the last six focus on the individual's contact with others and with the world. Libras are first and foremost focused on others and how they relate to them. We can call this the sign of Partnership with a capital 'P' because these folks do not want to be alone! For a Libra, everything is better if it's done as a pair. Libras are good when paired up, too, since they epitomize balance, harmony and a sense of fair play. While they are true team players at work, their favorite partnership is at home: marriage. Libras feel most complete when they are coupled up with their lover, forever. This is so funny I guess that is why always want to be with the ladies.

It's the Scales that symbolize Libra, and just like that balancing mechanism wants to stay even, Libras want to be on an even keel. Think of the Scales of Justice and how they work at striking the right balance. Likewise, Libras are objective, just and want to do what's best for everyone. It's possible, though, that this penchant for fairness is for a different reason: Libras abhor conflict. The scales study every possible angle in the hopes of achieving peace and harmony, so much so that others may see them as fickle and indecisive. If that's what it takes to avoid a confrontation, that's fine with the Scales. The Libra-born are keen strategists, organizing groups with poise and getting the job done (in keeping with the Cardinal Quality assigned to this sign). Further, you can expect the Scales to be companionable, sociable folks.

Libra is ruled by Venus. In ancient Roman mythology, Venus was a smooth seductress who was at her best amid pleasurable excess. Well, Libras are certainly carrying the torch for her today. The Scales are cultured, refined and love beautiful things. Most of all, they love beautiful people, which is why Libras do so well at cocktail parties or at the theater, opera or ballet. Those born under this sign always have the right thing to say and know how to make others feel comfortable. Suave? You bet. Libras are so adept at charming conversation that they need to be mindful of overstepping their boundaries and appearing vain or gossipy (the Scales do love intrigue). When these folks are on their game, however, they are a pleasure to be with. Libras are artistic, stylish and enjoy creating a beautiful world. The converse of this is that bored Libras can become apathetic and lazy -- but they'll smile anyway. With all humility I can say I love beautiful people but the sad part is that I don’t know how to dance, so the ballet part they got me wrong, in as much as I talk too much I almost always know the right thing to say and make others comfortable *I wonder why you are eyeing me* blame God for allowing me to be born within this range of dates.

The element associated with Libra is Air, and that means reaching higher, specifically to the higher mind. Libras like to put their mind to good use, and enjoy communicating their thoughts to others. They like to use their smarts (and talk) to get to know others better -- yes, knowledge about people is where it's at for Libras. You can expect the Scales to make a fair argument, too, since they live by the principles of diplomacy and compromise. When this approach doesn't work, however, Libras are not above using their persuasive charms to get their way. Manipulative? Nah, Libras really are too nice for that. Plus, any end-runs that these folks use are usually to build themselves up, since the Scales can be easily deterred. Libras are polite and don't like to fight, far preferring to talk things through. Remember, these folks know how to communicate (they're Air) so they're bound to make their point. Libras don't get in a huff when faced with an opposing viewpoint. Rather, they take a deep breath and consider all the options in the spirit of cooperation. I communicate my thoughts to my friends and sisters that’s why people think I say a lot of rubbish meanwhile that is what I am thinking. I have tried being manipulative but failed L I guess that is just who I am. I know I am not really caring but trust me I am super nice.

Libras at play may not be as energized as at work, if you call socializing work (and the Scales do). That's why exercise for Libras needs to have a social component to it, such as that found at a gym. Alternatively, Libras love the outdoors, so riding and biking can also prove fun. They also love the colors of the sunset sky, that melding of ivory, pink and light blue. In the game of love, Libras are a bundle of energy, romantic and loyal to the core. The Scales need to be on the lookout for their lower backs, though, which tend to shoulder any burdens they may be carrying. Hmmmmm so this is the reason I like walkabout, I cant just sit ma ass down in one place, always wanting to go out, thank God for my alter Reme who always poisons my mind to sit back sometimes.

The great strength of the Libra-born is their quest for fairness, peace and harmony. That the Scales are the great diplomats of the zodiac further helps their case. A beautiful journey this will be, thanks to the Libra's inimitable sense of style. You can hate us all you like its already too late for you to be a Libran and if you are one hi5 to you. To those who are not, make sure you try and get your children to be born in the range of dates :D

What I Wore Today

This post is late, @Etisalat_NG is to be blamed for poor network coverage. I wonder whether 3G services are by force. I am up and its just cock crow, robbers and my area they wouldn't free us. God pass them sha we still thank Him atleast Nigerian Police could help a bit.

I wish I was nude all day :D, I am still going to try Adam and Eve's stunt some day. Nothing special about what I wore today as it was an unofficial day. I wore my navy blue pair of boxers, khaki pants, white shirt, white ankle socks and a pair of white sneakers. I had to obey the clarion call, can't remember when last I heard about Clarion but she should be well lool.

Mid-day struck and I had so many errands to attend to and I don't like being seen as a corper, I actually took extra pair of clothes when I left the house. So I changed into my navy blue polo by ralph lauren shirt and blue denim jeans with my pair of ttdalk slippers. I got home by sun down and changed to house mode clothing, I suited up *jokes* was in only boxers and t shirt while I ironed my clothes for the month of September.
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day13 - My Opinion About My BODY and How I Feel About It

This 30 day challenge is hard I wouldn't lie, the topics spread across so many aspects of life but what can I do a deal is a deal. This post must continue.

Every morning when I wake up, immediately after easing myself I must take a look at the mirror to make sure my face is still on point. I hate pimples so I try as much as possible not to eat oily and canned foods. It really annoys me when I look at the mirror and my goaty aint grown but at the same time I don't like bumps gotten from shaving so I would rather say I am happy as a hairless man.

I checked my weight today at the hospital and good Lord 60.6kg *whew* I am back in the range of the sixties. I hate the fact that I am a feather weight it boils my heart but the more I try to eat the thinner I become so I have stopped trying. I think I have a major problem with my thin legs x_x, my sisters even call them toothpick legs, so I don't even bother trying to wear shorts even when I wear skinnies oooops my flat ass doesn't help but man has to me in fashion.

I am in love with my girly feet, I just believe guys with big legs shoes just never fit them. There is no shoe I have bought that has never fitted me :| that's a fact and I mostly always find my size :D in case you want to get me a pair of shoes I wear 41.5. I forgot to say I am in love with the shape of my head no matter how small you may think it is. The head is just normal not boxy and not big but the perfect shape. I know I am not a fine boy so I just like being fresh and keep a low cut, taking my hair down every 14 days.

I am thinking hard choi!!! Which other part of my body don't I like ehrmmmm okay that should be it. I am grateful to God for how I look I think I would still come this way in another life same height same shape of head, same face, same shoe size, there is a but I would come with bigger biceps and a well defined 6 pacs :D
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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Day12 - Five girls whom I find attractive

Is this really the topic?! I wish I could pass, a whole woman wrapper like me,your telling me to limit my crushes to only 5. What rubbish?! *jokes*.Anyway I am so sorry I can't write their names, so initials would do.

1. O.O
She just had to top the list even though I know she doesn't know where to place me in her life. I am just glad she believes in me. I love the way we connect even though sometimes I f**k up and don't live up to expectation. That her smile and soprano voice melts my heart any day any time and till today I still have a crush on her,I only wish #lipssealed, if wishes were really horses fools will ride, abeg I am already letting out too much info.

2. A.N
This female specie has known me the longest out of all my female friends. We have been kinda close since the mid-nineties but she only got to know I liked her sometime in the year 2000. I wonder why I still find her attractive even though she is now adding weight #weirdmuch I know girls don't like being called fat but she is really going to be fat :|.if you doubt look at her cheeks but she is damn pretty. Always forming busy and not having my time sometimes I wonder if she is the 1st to study pharmacy or she is going to be the last.

3. E.V
My cute canadian friend. We have never met but trust me soon, time will tell. She is so attractive even girls that have seen her picture on my phone would agree with me, her dimples are so deep #iblush. I miss our skyping days when I would rush from work just for a conversation, she is a definition of a real babe, down to earth and says things as they seem. She is very much inclined with her edo culture, pidgin speaking and canadian accent, loves sleeping, watching series and eating. Its a pity she has gone AWOL.

4. R.O
I remember our first conversation. That faithful day in GTB customer service when she asked for my challenge x_x I was speechless. Seems God just blessed her with all the qualities, height, face endowment, voice, you can imagine only her. You know I wouldn't carry last now I scoped her name tag and her left hand unfortunately for me she is married. But that didn't stop me I kept going to that bank each and everyday just to look at her face. But as God would have it she was transferred to another branch *sobs* all is well sha so many other fishes in the ocean.

5. R.O
Too bad she is also married but I can't stop shivering anytime she comes into my office or passes me on the corridor. I always let out that smile and give her a warm greeting, she also responds happily making my mind at rest. Saw her desktop background the other day with her baby daughter and husband I didn't know how to vex I was just like :) when the time is right my own cute wifey would come around Amen!!
Regards,
Ehi Egbele
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