str8 4rm THE HEART

Before I left for mid-week service today I was kind of down, I thought maybe it was because of the cold due to the heavy down pour outside but guess what? I was wrong, right now I am in traffic on my way back home and I still feel the same.

Exactly one week and a day today I met a new friend, we grew fond of each other in just a short while that right now you would not believe me how much I miss this my friend. The truth is that I am sure you are saying this boy has come again with his confusion, no is the answer because this is rather shocking, its hard for me to understand how things went wrong. We chatted day in day out, she sent voice notes, I replied back the voice notes, this is quite absurd.

My story goes on and on, it even got to the extent I picked the clothes she wore for her french classes. Now this is where I messed up, I forgot BIS was not eternal but yet I remember her asking "Ehi is there any need of renewing my subscription?" And I was so carefree and told her to follow her mind, I am very sure that must have upset her but she never mentioned. She talked to me as if she had known me right from the day I was born, she even sent consoling messages to my younger sister who was ill, she was like family to me.

Today everything seems so odd because I woke up to see she never said goodbye, but wait friends never say goodbye, they are there till the very end. This is fascinating, I never mentioned her to anybody not even my best friend, or first crush or anybody, okay let's say I mentioned her to my baby sister who I hardly ever tell anything, but how on earth didn't I collect her number now my heart is bothered because I care and miss her so much.

So many questions to be answered:
#1 what if she never comes back?
#2 what if she never existed?
#3 what if this was her plan?
#4 what if these where only mind games?

Gosh why am I so emotional or will I say weak hearted, I wish I could help myself, no one I repeat no mortal misses her more than I do rite now. In fact I think this is going to be my last post, I am very sorry on ending my blog this way but if she never returns I never return to blogging... CIAO!!!